Sunday, December 21, 2008

I'll have a blue christmas...

Yea, It's been a long while since I've been here. I some how lost all desire to write. I even stopped my endless scribbles on notepads at my desk, or at home, or even on the back of receipts. It used to help me feel this sense of relief, but I'm not sure why I decided that wasn't enough anymore. I also don't know why I decided that doing nothing was a better way?! What a fool.

When there is only one light that seems to be burning, it feels even harder to make sure you don't burn that out.

I need a new job. One that I can feel like I'm actually valuable in. One that I can feel a sense of accomplishment at. One where what I'm good at, is what I'm doing. While being able to do all that... I some how need to be able to pay these never ending debts.